T, my head is still spinning from our last session and your mixed messages. I don't know if i"m coming or going. I think that we both know that it's best for me to find a new T...you even said that you'd understand if I did. But you also want us to continue on because you think you can help me.

Again my mind is spinning and it has been since our last meeting 10 days ago! I can't get anything done and sometimes I wonder if being in therapy with you has helped me or hurt me more. I'm really leaning towards the latter.

I left a message for a new T today, we shall see how that goes. I just can't see us recovering from this. I feel like there will always be an elephant in the room.

Why am I so attached and trying and trying to make this work when there are so many other Ts out there???? Why can't you meet me part of the way?

I can't wait until this whole madness is behind me! I need my thoughts back and not to be thinking of you and our work 24/7.