Gerber--Thank you!
In your posts you seem express some of what I am going through but just don't seem to be able to put it into words. All I can say is that I'm struggling with wanting (needing?) to express myself on an emotional level not only in therapy but in real relationships. The frustration of not being able to break through my inhibitions and let myself actually acknowledge my feelings and then express them to someone is driving me nuts. It is hard not to force it. I feel like if I could let myself go and let out what I am feeling I wouldn't need to be going to therapy anymore. I wouldn't need to put myself through all this discomfort wanting this deeper empathetic thing but not really knowing what it is that I really want.

Gerber, it think is was great that you were able to tell him that you felt like you wanted or need to cry. The fact that you are brave enough to admit that you need to cry seems to me like you are actively chipping away at the wall.