You don't sound crazy at all to me! I hear someone who is looking at all sides of the situation and trying to deal with it all. We do need to accept that things aren't so great right now...It's exhausting, it's confusing, sometimes plain annoying...admitting it is acknowledging it...But the fact that you don't wallow in it and instead cradle yourself back to a safe zone is the very sign of courage!! According to Aristotle, that is one of the two key virtues to living fruitfully (the other being temperance) You are making the best of your situation and you should be very proud of yourself!! I am!