Dear T,

I wrote a nice letter to you that I plan to bring with me to our next session tomorrow. It has A LOT of embarrassing things in it and it contains material that's VERY triggering to me. I don't know how I'd even handle talking about it? It details abuse, losses, neglect... I don't even know how I managed to write it all?

The only problem is that I don't trust myself to bring it to you. I feel like I'm going to chicken out! I know I should put my best foot forward and just hand you the f***ing thing, but damn, I don't know if I can do that.

I'll have a lot of suspense and feelings of awkwardness while you're reading my letter. I mean, I'll be sitting there watching you read and I'll become more and more anxious, wondering what you're thinking. I don't know. I know you're going to do your best not to judge me, but I'm afraid I'll come across as a horrible person.

I don't know if I can do this... ... but I need help.

Yours Truly