well i finally got out of bed! only to move to the couch, but i am looking for small improvements today. Actually i made dinner, with the few clean dishes left!
yeah, i need to do the dishes among every other chore in the world.

on a positive note- i have a load of laundry in the washing machine! progress!
(only 7 more loads to go. lol)
yeah it doesnt sound like much. and i still havent gotten in the shower.
but i am trying to not be too hard on myself.
i have to go to work tomorrow, which is making it a bit hard to breathe whenever i think about it.. ****. i need to suck it up and somehow just keep showing up.
i am watching "extrreme weight loss" on tv, as i eat a bowl of mac and cheese!

i see my pdoc on wednesday, which is giving me some sense of relief. idk.
for about a second i considered calling my mom, but its not fair to call and tell her i am doing bad when she lives so far away so cant really do anything about it, anyway.

lets hope i am slowly crawling out of this hole.
wishing you all a kick *** night.