Yes I know my kids can sense it. I try to put on a happy face a lot for them. Doesn't always work & my depression & issues bleed thru. Sometimes I feel like the glue for the family bec my husband can be overbearing. I feel like they need me to keep balance. He is a good provider for us.
But sometimes I catch myself mumbling under my breath & I know my oldest 12yo can feel it.

The house feels so different when he's not in it. Less tense to me, less heavy. The only place we get along is thru text!

I've been in therapy over 20 yrs. I stopped. Most, I realize is situational & my anger issues won't get talked away.

So I stay for them & die inside but know it's a sacrifice for them or I leave with nothing. My husband has an eye for eye mentality & his own anger issues he won't work on.
So I ask myself everyday do I leave & try to find myself & a life of contentment knowing I'll do it alone.