im withdrawing from opiates currently. i'm entering day 3. i still do not feel good. ive done this many times before, so at least i know it will pass. it is still so very uncomfortable though.

its hard for me to push away the thoughts that if i used, all of this sickness will stop. it would be so easy..

..but then it wouldnt... because i will get hooked again. i cannot live like that any longer. i will end up dead