Yesterday I agreed to take a break from alcohol. I didn't specify how long that break would be but I made that decision myself.

My dr and I had trialed a low dose of 25mg seroquel at bedtime for me because in the winter, 50mg was too much for me. Well now I wait for my dr again to probably bump my dose back to 50mg to make the paranoia quiet in my mind and calm the inner rage I've been feeling.

Now I love my partner, but ugh I am so mad... she wants to go to my drs Apts and tell my dr how to run my medications...

When my partner told me that I'd probably be on medication for life because I don't practice mindfulness, exercise and eat as healthy as her. I am so pissed. I don't think she understands that some of my mood/ energy swings are bipolar and not every swing is borderline... I hate the idea of being on medication for life but I just feel like she was grating on my nerves last night... as if I could pull myself up with my bootstraps and get better with "just" exercise, meditation etc.