Thank you for the support. I thought this was going be a routine holiday. Yesterday I had to retreat to my room to try to get it together. I was at the point that I couldn't stand the sound of my mom's voice.

She came walking in to talk to me and I shouted at her to "get out! get out! get out!" I finally took a Xanax and that helped. I had zero emotional energy left.

It's going to take a while to process all of this. I can't tell you how grateful I am for this community. I feel like I have a sanctuary here.