This may be a little unusual story, I picked up a drink, a very light one last night after about 3yrs of sobriety.
It's good to be a narcissistic mentally ill. To be the man that I want to be, I didn't want to keep having around the long-time-sobriety badge, it made me feel hypocritical, now I have full and better understandings of my relationship with alcohol, I just feel better adjusted when I think about the subject of recreational drug use.