again I wish you complete recovery ... but I know no one who has been depressed (not talking about feeling sad or even seasonal) ... but laying down and trying to off yourself depression ... and even if they survive and have a great joyful life now .... does not still entertain the random su thought ... does not under certain conditions fall back into a period of depression even if slight and short lived ... I (personally) do not believe it ever leaves you ... it is always in the back of your mind ... if this is not your experience then I am so happy for you ... I would love to be wrong ... so many have been managing this for so many years ... some get better ... hell I am better than in years ... but many do not ... maybe those that are "cured" just leave ... good for them ... but it is not my experience ...