I wouldn't want you traded in or refunded, you're too unique.

I do get what you're saying, though. I often feel like the product with a defect on the assembly line of life. Well, a few defects. The truth is, I'm left with what I have and have to, in turn, work with that. And it sucks. And it's miserable.

But I'll tell ya, when I am functioning, when I am at a stable level (not necessarily healthy but stable), I kill it. I can work two jobs, be a full time student and still manage to take time out for family/volunteer work.

I think that you can do the same when you're mind's not working against you. I have a strong feeling that, when your mind isn't trying to kill itself, it's a machine that no others can contend with. The way you write, the amount of introspection you are capable of and the way you're able to communicate on here is beyond impressive. I love reading what you write on here because, not only is it relateable, but you can verbalize things I can barely wrap my head around at times.

Anger is often a response in the brain to 'fight or run' away from danger. Depression is a danger and your mind wants to fight it. Thing is, it's a primitive response that attacks itself. A mind is so complex and impressive that it can't even fight itself. Your brain is extraordinary and is also unique to you. I don't know how long it'll take and don't know how much willpower it will entail; but your mind can do this.