Give yourself a break. Pancakes aren't as easy as they seem. Once you get the hang of it you will be able to do this---I get the frustration though----I think you need to be able to really slow down when trying something new (I know I do or I mess it up)---
Cooking is a funny thing for me---my mother never let me into the kitchen, she was a good cook, I left home not knowing how to boil an egg---and I ended up learning to cook in the kitchen of a diner---(where I found out potatoes are par boiled before making home fries...and I had to hide my ignorance, just watch and mimic----it actually worked....but was a bit unnerving....) Give yourself a hug, and it helps, if you can, to bring some humor to any situation---((((hug))))----
pancakes, you have to leave lumps in the batter and, once poured into a preheated pan, do not turn until the entire top is covered with tiny bubbles. the directions can seem simple but really pancakes are tricky----that is why even many diners/etc don't do them all that well....((((((((hug))))))))