Hi Clara!

I know you're right. I'm just frustrated. That's why I vented here instead of on another platform where people would just chime in with more mean spirited stuff. People here are reasonable and can bring me back down to earth. I'm struggling with what I feel is the loss of my independence. I'll get it back, because thats who I am, but right now it's hard. I'm trying to stay off meds because I finally feel like I have my 'edge' back. my body suffered on Effexor, even though it was better for my depression. I'm heavier and softer than I like to be. So I'm working on my physical fitness and body and muscles as well. I just want to have a paycheck and be able to pay bills again.

You're right. I love my friend. She made room for me and my elderly cat, when family didn't do anything. I do not like her husband, I believe he is holding her back in life. But she made her choice and she's an adult. He's not abusive, in fact, he's very compliant. I see him as weak thats probably why I don't like him. This my issue, not hers.

I'm sorry for all you've been through in your life. Life just sucks sometimes. I wish it didn't. Thanks you for your words of wisdom.