Today was the worst day I've had in a couple months. The usual stress of my life plus a horrible day at work. My boss is an *****. Anyway, came home very triggered by ????? Just very stressed out. All afternoon I was getting severe stomach pains. After having a yogurt, I laid down for 3 or 4 hours and listened to my Zen relaxation music and after awhile actually started to relax. I don't think I fell asleep, but may have "lost time". Not sure. I usually don't lose time when I dissociate. Anyway stomach pain has gone away. I don't want to go to work tomorrow, but I have to. 
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"Do you know what’s really scary? You want to forget something. Totally wipe it off your mind. But you never can. It can’t go away, you see. And… and it follows you around like a ghost."
~ A Tale of Two Sisters (Janghwa, Hongryeon) (2003)
"I feel like an outsider, and I always will feel like one. I’ve always felt that I wasn’t a member of any particular group."
~ Anne Rice
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