Hubby and I are very different. In some ways this is good, I've grown a lot over the last 30 years. In other ways, not so much. I feel very isolated and alone. He and my daughter informed me this last weekend they were selling my china. I realize it is just stuff. It was also a gift from my grandfather for my wedding. We added to it. Used it on a couple of occasions but don't really use it right now. Daughter doesn't want to inherit it. The thing is, I'm not ready to let go. When I said I wasn't comfortable they told me I already agreed. I had agreed to sell what we had added on, but that was after some argument. Now, it seems that meant I agreed with everything. Not only that, I was asked to justify keeping it. It made me feel so small and worthless. How can I justify owning anything? How can I justify living? I don't really do anything either. So now the house is silent. I have no idea if they sold the china or not. I quit taking my medications for Lupus. Surprisingly, they seem to already be having an effect. I slept a solid 15 hours and woke with a horrible migraine. I don't even know what I'm doing. I'm angry, hurt and have no one I feel comfortable turning to. My husband was supposed to be my partner, my friend.
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