Oh T,

I just don't know what to do with you. You are the right amount of calling my crap out and understanding. We can joke with each other, and I can be honest with you. Yet, I am still waiting for you to be a jerk. Turns out anytime I think you are being a jerk you have a perfectly reasonable explanation for what you did and it wasn't you being jerk at all.

I was thinking about all of the expenses I will have once H and I split and I started to panic, I realize I probably won't be able to afford to see you. Which would be a really crappy time to stop seeing you. Ugh, I suppose we should have that conversation sometime in the near future. I am so scared, T.. but thank you for saying my big decision isn't irrational and that it all makes sense. Thank you for understanding me, thank you for not banning me from emailing you and texting you (not that I text you all that often anyways). Thanks... now please don't turn out to be a jerk.

Healed