Sounds like a lot of us are struggling.

Still having a mixed episode. Had some suicidal ideations yesterday and I haven't had those in a long time. I do not plan on acting on it -- it is the mixed episode talking. I'm not listening.

It's really that I'm just sick of feeling so bad - I know it will get better...I hope soon. I can't sleep tonight. I went to bed early, exhausted, and I was just wanting the day to be over. That backfired. I was wide awake in bed for three hours and got up.

I felt manic two nights ago and have been in the dumps since...I hate mixed episodes. I wish we could all feel good.