I have periodic issues with alcohol but it's been many years since I've battled anything pertaining to it. At my worst, I drank twice a week. Mainly just beer or wine, no hard alcohol. It wasn't really a "problem" usually, but it was like playing Russian roulette. Most of the time I drank, nothing negative happened....I didn't get "drunk" or wake with a hangover. Every few years or so I'd drink and do something so incredibly stupid or end up suicidal, trying to slash my wrists or take copious amounts of pills. Several years ago when I finally accepted the bipolar, I realized how dangerous alcohol was for me and stopped without a problem. I don't think about having a drink except rarely and if I'm in a mood state I just say no. I've had 2 drinks a few times in the past few years without problem but I stick with 2 and only when eating out and having a large meal. When depressed, drinking has tipped me into suicide mode several times. It's just too risky for me. With that said, it wouldn't surprise me if I find myself overusing it again someday....I sure hope not but I wouldn't be surprised. My stomach is pretty much always sick and alcohol turns my stomach at the thought most of the time.....I'm lucky not to have cravings as fighting cravings has always been a weak stop for me.

I hope you can rid yourself of the alcohol beast ladyshadow and anyone else who struggles with it.