Glad you came out of hiding! It isn't fair that some of us as child had to endure such horrible stuff. The effects from it affects us so much as adults.
I read you are doing EMDR, I am too. It is so hard, but so revealing. I am just really getting started in the darkest depths. I finally was able to find my safe place, in a painting on my T's wall. I figured since it was a place that really didn't exhist, then my mom could never get me. So I think that will help a lot.

Did you establish a safe place before going through the trauma work?