woe-be-gone,

It's all too easy for me to claim that I'm simply just being emotional. Looking at it like it's physics does make it easier to understand.

Hoping,

Your pretty accurate there. As screwed as this may be, I rather have taken my mom or older brother's fists than dealt with my dad berating me around the house. Sure, getting hit sucked and, yeah, I swore I was going to die a few times, but the **** my dad said all of the time and all of the, "It's just in your head. Stop being emotional like your mother." It all added up and stuck with me. Everything he said replays when I wake up, try to eat a meal (which usually remains an un-eaten failure), when I'm working on anything and up into my dreams; it all repeats over and over again.