Could it be that you just wish you could "feel" the emotions? Because if you truely feel them, it would seem that you could cry. But I wasn't allowed to cry as a child, I would get into a lot of trouble. So most of my childhood I probably wasn't even allowed to show emotion. Even happiness caused me grief, because I had to be brought down by my mother.

I don't know really, it was just a though. Where you emotions denied when you were a child? I know I surpressed a lot when I was younger, and finally in therapy after almost 3 years, I can cry and not feel as uncomfortable.