I have been a loser....maybe I don't need to be a loser during this year 2017...
mental illness is so hard to work around....there is so much stigma...but I have so much self-stigma....I have very low self-esteem....I just cant get around it or over it...it is like ptsd....seems impossible to me right now...maybe a new drug would help me...maybe a new drug is the last thing I need...maybe I need to face reality...that life is not the way I want it....and some things do not change....some things in the usa are horrible....so are they getting better...I don't think so...I see the usa declining...it is very sad to see...how the people and their government are losers right now...I hope it changes...I see the usa like a sinking ship...and I am on it...