Okie...I don't know what to say...3 years old is so young to have that much guilt placed on you. I truly am sorry you had to endure abuse at the hands of somebody who was suppose to love and protect you.

We can never "fix" what happened to us in the past. We can only try to find some way to deal with it so we can feel like the wonderful people we are and always have been....

I feel for you and your pain...