Dear T,

I'm f_cking losing it. I'm going to snap.

I feel like a huge f_ckup (probably because I am since I keep f_cking up at work). I feel like I can't do anything right anymore.

I'm missing meetings or showing up late to them.

I feel so careless -- i.e., "well, I keep f_cking up, so what's the point in trying anymore?" So my carelessness doesn't help.

I've also been having difficulties concentrating on my work. I have literally done NOTHING in the past week and a half. I wish I were exaggerating. I mean, whenever my team asks me for progress updates, I come up with some BS as to why I'm still working on it. I can't keep doing this