I hit a severe depressive episode and was encouraged to go IP, but it was more like an IOP, in that I got to roam around the facility and come home weekends. It was mainly to get some rest and recalibrate, get back into a routine (quite strict might I add) because the one i had, was screwed up by my job at the time. (Working shifts, erratic off days, double shifts etc)

Anyway, after two weeks the HOD said he couldn't let me stay there (its state so its free) if I didn't at least agree to taking one med, as he couldn't break the rules for me.

So I agreed to trying a small dose of a new MS.

I swore I would taper off as soon as I got out, but then I got a new job, and I figured I'd try working while medicated and see if it helps alleviate some of the strain. Maybe give it a year. It's almost a year and I honestly don't know if my job is just better because my employers and environment is very forgiving or if the meds help, or if its a combo. So atm I'm at a cross roads...

Haven't met my new pdoc yet (old one was in favor of the year trial since I did three years med free until that job drove me nuts), but who knows if new pdoc will agree with that sentiment.

The only med I use PRN is Ativan, maybe every 3 months when I feel my wires sparking. Lol