(((So leigheas))), when you say this make sure in your mind you keep saying "today" it's hard today when you have these lows. Then do a lot of self care, and self love until it passes. I know it can be hard, and requires some "patience", sometimes a lot of patience. But, you deserve it, you are genuinely hurting, it's a hurt a lot of others don't understand, but it's real and you definitely deserve patience, validation, support, and especially lots of self care.