Back at home. I think my outing today was a much better choice than just going home and curling up in a ball waiting to die. So that's good.

I Blasted music at top volume w my window down and heat on high, and screamed along to the songs while drivig down the highway. Cathartic. And healthier than punching a wall
I saw a really bizzare movie w the twilight vampire girl actress.
Then got some soup for dinner and went to a dbsa meeting.

The meeting was actually helpful I think. I got there early and that part seemed a bit awkward. But there were some cool people. And I think I feel a little less fragile than I did this afternoon. So I think I might try to go weekly if I can. It's a bit of a hike tho. Idk.

I actually made plans for both sat and sun so I can't sleep 18 hours a day this weekend. I am trying. Still here.
Take care all.