At the moment I do. I take 20mg of Abilify and sometimes 10mg of Zyprexa to sleep. It is essential for me now but when I stabilise I can go off both. Med free is my dream too but it won't be happening for a long time. It depends on so many things but generally you would have to be stable for at least 6 months before any pdoc would be comfortable with it. Some of us will be on meds forever due to the nature of our illness. Meds or no meds, what matters is finding stability. The holy grail. Right now I think it is best you stay on your meds and see what your pdoc recommends to help you get through what you are experiencing now. Be patient. Stability will come. It just might take some time. Bipolar is generally a re-occuring illness and when episodes come, meds are needed to calm things down. Other meds help reduce relapse too. Hope you feel better soon.