I appreciate your reply, granite. Thank you. Yes, I'm not sure I need T right now but I don't want to lose the consistency of having her be there. I think the lack of intensity is depressing me a little. Something is missing in my sessions and I'm grieving. I have to adjust to my new relationship with T. I didn't need her to tell me she loves me yesterday. I felt disconnected from her. That's what happens when I go every 2 weeks. I have to get through this stage. I can't go backwards where T was everything to me but I miss those days. I've always been a nostalgic person. I have to realize that I'm progressing even though it's bittersweet. I've got physical concerns but T isn't helping as much as I thought she could. I'm seeing her limitations and I don't want to. I want to remember all the things she's helped me with instead. I'm not sure what is going on with me.