Im trying to figure out if im paranoid or if i have a reason to be scared or if i just need to avoid looking up stuff.so i haven't been sleeping in my room mostly cause im scared my dolls will attack me.now i love my dolls i find them beautiful and i never used to think about this way about two and a half years ago. I was always a bit paranoid not of dolls things like murders and kidnappers.i would constantly be checking the clock at 15 years old in case my mom didnt come home from work at that exact time id have meltdowns.my father and i often got into bad physical fights over this.
I also freaked out when my sister didnt come home as i was homeschooled for medical reasons and shed walk.
Finally i was paranoid about the special education teachers.when they came to class to watch and observe unexpectedly i felt uncomfortable them watching me ecspecially given the way i was diagnosed was much like a law and order clip.dark room two chairs answering questions.i also thought they had sedating needles in there drawers or pockets.funny cause i was in 7th grade and had never been in therapy or anything yet i knew enough about needles to know someone was giving them out.finally i thought theyd give me strange test for me to do.
Flash forward to today it never occured to me im still rather paranoid of things.like my mombfor example sometimes if its late she doesnt pick up ill call like ten or twenty times no joke till she picks up.and tonight im listening to music and the song says gone with the wind and the page happens to say gone with the wind.i felt it was a sign from a kid who might have killed himself and then another song after that said love and it happened again the song said love. The word and it said love im currently sleeping in the living room.finally i discovered two spooky places today by accident in the world.i dont even know how ot happened im just freaked out wish i could hide a knife under my shirt but didnt work out to well last time.little sister got in trouble last time cause i forgot to take nap out of backpack.