Man.... yall are making me skittish about next week. I'd really love the paranoia to "go away and never come back." I can challenge it to some extent by splitting rational thought from emotional thought, and only acting in the physical world based on rational thought; but that also breaks my ability to emotionally connect with people, even family. (I can fake it a little, but there is no "make it") If that could die in the same way the "up" died, I'd put up with seriously annoying stuff to get there.

But most on APs here, seem to want off....