Okay I am talking to myself here as I keep hurting myself. I just get all numb inside and then I am like f??? it I need to do something and I hurt myself. I can't tell anyone in the family as they know nothing about the hurting and I can't talk to the professionals as its Friday after 5pm. I am away to volunteering and I really just want to stay in the house and cry. I have been crying less now but that's cause I am so numb inside. I know I should have a handle on this I am a grown woman acting like a child.... I know what I should be doing I am a clever person but I just can't my ways of coping with things are to lash out at myself. I have tried the cold ice thing but that doesn't help at all. Grr!!