May I ask why you don't want to go on disability? It can be a lifesaver for those who truly cannot work enough to support themselves, and there's nothing wrong with receiving it if you need it. That's what it's there for. I myself am on disability and with the help of my local YMCA Employment Center, I was able to find a job just yesterday working part-time (15-20 hours a week). I can't wait to start! Perhaps there is an organization like that where you live, that could help you get set up with a job that suits your qualifications and personal needs.