A lot of people struggle with accepting financial help, and it's perfectly understandable.

It's awesome that you want to work but I recommend keeping disability as an option available in case it comes to the point where you really need it. I am not sure how your disability system works but you should be able to work part-time while collecting disability. (Also keep in mind that the application and waiting process can take a long time) For now, I suggest applying for part-time positions and see if there are any employment organizations like the YMCA Employment Centre that could help you out with your search.