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It feels like there are too many of me at one time. I'm walking in circles reacting to what's going on around me with no thoughts.

I tried to do what you asked me to do, but I couldn't get there. That place feels too far away. I know it's there and one part of me wants to look at it and another part just keeps pushing it further away. I emailed you and told you that I couldn't do it. Now I feel stuck in between those two parts.

I want to work on the workbook, but my mind won't focus on it.

Read an article about therapist terminating clients for being resistant and non compliant. It's kind of freaking me out. What if I'm too messed up or complicated?

Compliance has just recently found the courage to say "no" I can't or don't want to do that. Now it's afraid that being brave will cost a horrible price.

My heart is telling me that it's ok. It's just me caught in the middle of what's going on internally and I'm just flippin out. I just need to convince the parts flippin out that it's ok.

Thank goodness it Friday!! I can't wait to sort this out on Tuesday. It feels so good to know I can talk to you about this.

I hope that's not being too needy. Geez!!

Trail

ETA. Typo