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Originally Posted by Pennster
Rainbow, it sounds like you are not feeling well physically - that's likely to affect how you are feeling overall. it sounds like you are putting a little pressure on yourself. Do you want to cut back right now? It doesn't really sound like it.
I think Granite makes good points about it being helpful to have someone to talk things over with. Making a list of things you still want to work on sounds like a great idea as well.
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Thanks, Pennster. You're right. I have some medical issues, hopefully not major, but I'm stressed and depressed a little bit.
What is going through my mind is wondering if seeing my T is worth $100 a session. When insurance paid, no problem. But this is a ridiculous amount to pay out-of-pocket, I think. I can't take back my decision to pay it to her because she knows I can afford it. I feel stuck!
I like having her there for me, like granite said. It's the attachment thing! I don't like growing away from her. I wish I could do it all over again. I know that's weird! I want the relationship to become closer like it did before. Now it's a normal kind of relationship. I like that but I have to pay for it.
I really do have to make an honest list of what there is to work on. And also accept that I don't HAVE to cut down sessions yet it. I will miss 2 sessions soon so it's naturally happening. My old T would say I'm still a work in progress, I think.