I can relate to what you are saying. I eat and eat and feel like I have no control. I know it won't help me long term and it only makes my poor health worse but the immediate release seems to over ride my rational thinking. I'm so embarrassed about my behavior. I feel so overwhelmed. I am currently trying to stop cutting and if I go a while without cutting my eating gets way worse. I know it's hard for me to talk about so I've only told my therapist once. I hope you are doing ok.