I don't know if this is right topic to put in this forum but anyway.

I really don't know what to do.
My sister and my mum have betrayed me. We thats how I feel and I feel.I can't trust them. I feel I can't be my self. I can't be angry. I can't be over joy. Its like they trying to put me in a jigsaw puzzle that won't fit.

So what happened was I been seeing my psychotherapist for a couple of months now. I've felted getting better. Standing up for myself and dressing the way I use too.
My therapist told me I been treated as the escape goat in the family.
Everything is always my fault. Even say for example my mum opens the fridge and the chicken is gone, its my fault. When it was my sister's boyfriend who ate it.
Or say I have my book and headphones on the coffee table my mum goes into a angry rage! But if its my sister oh no its ok. What happened to me is when I really saw the truth. So I went for a shower at 6 in the evening because my stomach was sore. No one told me how the water bill was high.
So I stepped in the shower and as I did. My mum bang on the door saying she needs a shower and she kept bamging on the door. I said "Don't tell me what to do" then she bang on the walls. Deep down I felted really anxious like a little girl. Moments later maybe after 10 mins. The temperature of the water change from hot to cold. I knew my mum was doing this. Because if you uae the kitchen tap it can affect the shower water. I ignored it because I thought if I give into her behaviour she knows that "if I do this to her, it works". Then suddenly the s water was turn off. I knew.what she did. I couldn't believe she would go that far! I felted really upset and angry. I dry myself and got changed. I went to her and dad wasn't in the living room so I suspected he turn off the shower. (p.s. My mum and dad broke up when I was 7. Whenever my dad comes over she always make him do something. Like cleab the garden or go down the road and get wine. She gives him her card.to pay.for it) I went up to mum and said calmly "Did you turn off the water"? She smiled. And said yes. I said to her "I don't appreciate being treated this way. I feel hurt. I don't want a relationship with you until your behaviour changes" she said "what about your behaviour" and then she looked at her phone and competently dismissed me. I went in my bedroom and just.cried. I don't know why.

Then just last week. My sister told me she rang my keyworker. I said what why? She said I tols them "you are passive aggressive and he has a different opinion about you" she went off. And I just.cried in my bedroom. I felted so betrayed. I feel I can't trust my family at all or my keyworker or my.thearpist. That I should die and no one would care if I die. I had images in my mind to hang myself. I rang my partner he felted really strongly I should move in with him and his parents. So he went to speak to his mum I went to speak to.my sister and asked exactly what happened. She said she rsng my keyworker and said she was concerned and that they been sold the wrong story about shower and Im abusive.

The following day I asked my mum about it anf she said I said something hurtful to her but I haven't swear at her or call her names. And that Im abusive. It really hurt me what she said. She say things like "Do you think its.fair the way Im treated." I said "no I don't think that way" then she said " well you not thinking hard enough "

Now and then she would call me names or swear words name.

Anyway my partner whom I been with 8 years said his mum says its ok. But the house can be abit chaos and if we go anywhere to tell her where you go.

So Im not too sure what to do.