I get thought of harming others if they harm me first. I too worried if I should tell my doctors but instead told my family and they said my thoughts and feelings were justified and normal considering the circumstances. My husband advised me not to tell the doctors and based upon the hair brained decisions those incompetent fools have made, I'm glad I didn't.

With that said, what you've written seriously concerns me. It seems a public safety issue and I feel you should disclose these thoughts....the sooner the better. Feeling all that anger and hostility must be horrible and I'm truly sorry you must live with this pain. I hope you are able to find help.