At times i think i could, to save myself from jail. But i have a lot to live for. I'm smart, have a bachelors degree from a top university, worked in finance since graduation, have a good family.

To be honest, i am not sure my thoughts will go away. They have been with me since childhood. I just want to be left alone, so i can do what i please.

Also, there is no way for my insurance to cover me for extended periods of time based on "has sexually assaulted, hid behind tree with hammer, carried bread knife into the hood to hunt". To be completely honest with you, i just don't come off like that type of guy. And even if i did, that would simply get me in a hospital, where i would naturally put on the charm and everything i said prior would go out the window.

How do i even judge how serious i am? The only way, is to do it first, but then it's too late because i'll end up in a prison with degenerates.