Hi Jennifer02, Welcome to the forums. First let me say I empathized BIG TIME! I suggest you look around at some of the discussion in all these forums. There is a wealth of information. I don't know you at all but having been where you are let me say this. Your statement says it all "I want him but all of this is very exhausting and really sucks me dry, I feel sad, my energy feels drained. I feel alone,Basically like if I was not even in a relationship." From my experience this is what you get. Let me guess, you are a kind compassionate giving person? You are young and this is the kind of relationship you will get...at best. It can improve but it will take tons of work, years and cooperation which generally you will not get. Read some of the other posts around and see what you think. It really grates on me to say these things but here and other related websites with related forums will spell it out for you. Look at other related discussions. Then think about it and write some more. Lookup ADDitude website and adhdmarraige as well. Start here: https://psychcentral.com/blog/archiv...rried-to-adhd/ MAKE SURE YOU READ THE DISCUSSION AND COMMENTS AFTER THE ARTICLE.

All the best. Keep us posted