I'm feeling exactly the same way, but mine is justified and not pathological. How much abuse is a person expected to take? I want to throw darts at my doctors heads and private parts. I'll settle for throwing them at pictures of their dumb faces. If your doctor is a qualified professional, they won't get mad at you for feeling this way. If you were a doctor and your patient was feeling as you do now, how would you respond to the patient? Treat yourself with kindness and know you DESERVE help and compassion at this time and always. (((Hugs)))