Hi everyone I just want to say thank you for all the kind words & help. It really helped getting that all out. I've kept it all to my self for a very long time. I've been sick & really depressed. I was in a very deep & dark hole I thought I was never getting out. My oldest daughter called me today & wants to help me out with my living worries. Depression make thing so much worse but I have pulled out of it maybe to high can't shut my brain off not sleeping. But it's a lot better then that dark hole I was in. I don't feel like my meds are helping a hole lot but I know I'm better off on them. But on that roller coaster heading up hopefully for a while. I still need to get out with friends it's been a long time. Hopefully Saturday night. I think I will like it hear & I hope I can give some helpful words to someone in need.