I am so sorry you had to handle something like that. It does sound like you maintained your composure and calm for her when she needed you, and that is wonderful. The what-ifs will drive you crazy if you let them... it happened the way it did, you woke up in time. Even if you hadn't woken up, that would not have been your fault. I don't want to sound harsh, but she could've called someone, woken you up, or taken them. Those were her choices. And whatever choice she would've made, would've been her choice.

I know, when I attempted su, I could have called people, but didn't, because I didn't want them to stop me. I didn't want to put that on them. I also know, all of my friends would do everything they could to get me to tell them where I am and call 911, rather than try to talk me out of it themselves. They know they can't.

If someone is seriously su, and is going to do it, the only way to really stop them is to call 911, and try to stall until help gets there.

I have had friends due, by su, by accidental od and other ways, and the what-ifs will always come... I learned, over time, to accept what happens as it is, and tonight, you were there for her.