T,

I'm glad I feel connected to you again. I'm genuinely surprised that you were puzzled by my apology letter and felt that I did not have to apologise to you regarding the unfair thing. I'm glad you still accepted my apology after we talked about why I wanted so much to apologise.

You reminded me several times to remember the later half of our session. I will.

The part on me stuck in Detached Protector mode as that transparent, impervious, thick wall. My Vulnerable Child mode behind it and you on the other side with that huge gap.

How the wall I was wouldn't shift or melt therefore I was so numb. How you said that my Vulnerable Child part can still hear your words despite the wall.

The shift I talked about where as I expressed frustration at my emotional numbness, I became my Healthy Adult on the same side as you looking at that wall at my Vulnerable Child self.

How something indescribable shifted and suddenly I was behind my Vulnerable Child self who had moved her hands from her sides to press against the wall. The wall had become much thinner and while you were still on the other side, you pressed your hands where she had pressed hers.

I will remember this.