So many things. Losing career opportunities, opportunity to have children (this is for me only, not expecting others to go the same road - I just tried and tried with my ex-husband and could get pregnant . Then I git physically ill and then Bipolar got out of control...now I am 40 I just don't have the energy to have children and my frequent hospitalisations are not what I want to put my child through) relationships, opportunities to got to places or enjoy them when depressed or mixed, and losing my mind when psychotic. To name a few.

So much loss, so much grief, yet sometimes there is a multitude of joy and excitement. Basically BP takes and takes then gives you a glimpse of joy and hope, only to take it back again.