Everyone here has some great ideas, but I have another one.

You can get on disability but still work. I did it for a while and my goal now is starting my business. I would love to eventually get off of disability but my short term goal (one year) is to earn enough money without affecting my SSDI and still pay bills.

Also, volunteering or peer counseling at a local drop in center might help you build a schedule while you deal with the job issue. You would be doing something, and if people know you are looking and know what you are looking for, you could get some insider info on work.

There are options, and right now it sounds like you are demoralized. I understand. I think everyone here does. But once you find your balance, you'll be able to work on your own options. It's possible.

The Voc Rehab might be a good place to start. But don't throw out the SSDI. You would also be eligible for supports in school and have medical in a couple of years.

There's hope. I wish you good luck and good health.