I suffer from Bipolar Disorder and depression disorder on top of that, along with many other mental illness's with it. I just got out of a really bad deep depression episode that lasted about 2 months. My last one this bad was Oct/Nov. This time I had been sent home from work from multiple emotional breakdown and even had them at drill and I did not even know why. Just simple questions of how are you would start them. I am in the military and I even got told by one of my higher ups I can not let my soldiers see me like that again. I had to stop counselling for 2 months due to people trying to make me sign over my notes, which I finally won the case of so I am back in counselling. I was just waking up, taking care of my dog, attempting to work and sleeping (or trying to) on my couch. I was having fleeting thought of how things would be better without me and how I was sick of this but as a psych major and working in BH i know they are typically temporary. I ended up failing a class and barely passing another and being put on financial and academic probation because I just had NO motivation to even try. I quit one job and back on probation at my other job. We are still playing with my medications and on my 6th try with an antidepressant. If I go through another one of these episodes, I will probably loose my job and get kicked out of school....Living with mental illness's can be challenging, especially when others around you cannot be supportive and understanding.