Dear Dr S,

I want an email from you. I want to know that you are thinking about me and those thoughts of well wishes are coming from you and are not just because I asked for them. Do you want to send them to me, do you struggle with the boundaries of this relationship? Maybe you don't.

I'm trying to leave you alone this weekend because I'm not needing you. I'm not in crisis. I'm thinking about you and want to hang out. I am wondering what you are doing this Saturday afternoon. I am sleeping a lot, so much so that wife got worried. I think I am doing ok though. I am tire and I think that is to be expected.

What did you think/feel when I gave you the coloring? In this moment, I feel so stupid for making it and giving it to you.

Wednesday - 4 days. That one hour is not going to be enough.

I love you. I want to tell you again.

Me